Week 4 & 5 Nov 21 2016

I wish that I could better describe the changes that are starting to take effect since the last post, but my life has been a blur of work, scrambling whatever underlying physiological and emotional changes are taking place with a storm of paper grading, lecture prep, and grant writing. Underneath the winds, there are shifts in the foundation that I can feel. The body sits differently, the emotions sometimes spin out, and my being rolls around. I feel like I am waking up to a new person frequently, which is disorienting after having become accustomed to one way of walking through the world, even if that way was closeted. I have not had the time to process these feelings and sensations in any meaningful way, so they remain large swells and undercurrents in the background of my life, but I hope to sit with them more this week.